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I wanted to write a *serious* post and a quick glance down Friends Pages shows the precision-made, flawless subject title 'Quo vadis, Baby?'* It dovetails with what I'm thinking, because at last i can answer that-- cz I really feel I DO know where I'm going.
This certainty has been crystallising over the last year or so during which, despite -- or perhaps necessarily WITH -- a huge amount of background confusion and smaller distress, everything seems to be beginning to make *some* sense, or it's heading in that direction anyway.
Its true also that not only ALL of my previous artwork but also my shambolic/catastrophic LIFE -that has included so many cruel deaths - appears to fit with what i want to be doing from now on.
I'll have to try to describe this in subsequence, its too big a chunk now.
I didn't walk TO the Wellcome exhib. last evening btw, but I walked quite a lot of the way back after calling in the Brit Library to get a form to renew my reader pass*. When i came out the sky was phenomenal -- like a mad baroque 'fury of heaven' scene -- i was rooted to the spot!
Maybe that's when things suddenly began to click into place -- and the fact I'd just seen a page of finely drawn human embryos from the 19th C in the Wellcome in the starkest detail I have ever witnessed. Thinking of all the bright glossy colour photos, the scan shots etc etc that we are bombarded with now, its a shock to realise, with horror, just how much the stark scientific *and moral* reality of our global situation is actually obfuscated by them.
*NOT that i have even the remotest aptitude fr things academic -- nope, i just want as much access as poss to squirrel bits of info and look at old pages for that clear, dry Malthusian view of the world.
i wore that top i scribbled on the back of, again with the fabric paints -- always the horror, y'see, and how to paint it .....
(also physically!! -- i need at least 10' X 8' canvases and the space to work em)
*oops, credit fr using that title to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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This certainty has been crystallising over the last year or so during which, despite -- or perhaps necessarily WITH -- a huge amount of background confusion and smaller distress, everything seems to be beginning to make *some* sense, or it's heading in that direction anyway.
Its true also that not only ALL of my previous artwork but also my shambolic/catastrophic LIFE -that has included so many cruel deaths - appears to fit with what i want to be doing from now on.
I'll have to try to describe this in subsequence, its too big a chunk now.
I didn't walk TO the Wellcome exhib. last evening btw, but I walked quite a lot of the way back after calling in the Brit Library to get a form to renew my reader pass*. When i came out the sky was phenomenal -- like a mad baroque 'fury of heaven' scene -- i was rooted to the spot!
Maybe that's when things suddenly began to click into place -- and the fact I'd just seen a page of finely drawn human embryos from the 19th C in the Wellcome in the starkest detail I have ever witnessed. Thinking of all the bright glossy colour photos, the scan shots etc etc that we are bombarded with now, its a shock to realise, with horror, just how much the stark scientific *and moral* reality of our global situation is actually obfuscated by them.
*NOT that i have even the remotest aptitude fr things academic -- nope, i just want as much access as poss to squirrel bits of info and look at old pages for that clear, dry Malthusian view of the world.
i wore that top i scribbled on the back of, again with the fabric paints -- always the horror, y'see, and how to paint it .....
(also physically!! -- i need at least 10' X 8' canvases and the space to work em)
*oops, credit fr using that title to
mark13
